Do you have insurance of your own? If not, in my view it's best to be open and honest
with your parents about what's happening in your feeling tone. I feel sure that they
would be very eager to help you get counseling and medications if you need them to
correct a possible chemical imbalance in the brain.

You're very much in control of your life, even though you say you've been acting.
The acting won't hold up in the long run, so please be brave and honest about all
this with those who love you most and are able to care for you at this time.

Take care and good wishes.