I am sorry for your pain. I believe you can survive. You can continue to reach out, to keep talking and surrounding yourself with people who understand what you are going through and how hard it is sometimes to just take life second by second. But that is how it is done. Just one more second... and then another... and another.... and comfort yourself knowing that you will not always feel this bad. Emotions are like waves. The only thing constant about them is that are always changing. One comes in and sometimes it might stay a while, but another one will come in after this one. And another one after that. and so on.

Just keep breathing, putting one foot in front of the other and you will survive.

You might want to try some Distress Tolerance skills from DBT. You can find some here:
Distress Tolerance

Just remember these skills are not going to deal with whatever is causing your pain. Their goal is to get you through the pain to a calmer place, where you can think and be in your wise mind, so you can make wise decisions about what is causing your pain.

I hope some of this helps. (((Hugs)))