I scored a 44...I've recently told my t about some of my experiences (feeling like I'm not alive, feeling like nothing is real or I'm not real, etc.) and she labeled it "depersonalization". I've never experienced any sort of trauma, so I think it might come from my mood episodes. My t told me that if I can feel more connected to other people, I'll feel more connected to myself and the world, and the depersonalization/derealization will subside.