Thank you everyone. I brought it up with her when we hung out and she made it about herself. I don't blame her. You are all very right, she just doesn't know how to be the supporter on the other end of it. That's okay though because I have the PC community which has supported me for 3 years now. I'm still asking myself why I did it again and I find myself slipping into the "spiral" where you make everything seem worse than it is and make yourself feel like everyone is against you personally and your friends have abandoned you. I'm only happy I've been through this several times before in my 5 years of SI history so I know how to take the fallout of the spiral and stop it and that I still have the support of the PC community. Send lots of love and positive thoughts my way please so I can make it through this relapse.

<3 Much Love, Hillary