Sorry to hear your sorry, just to let you know i have the same problem, i was sexually assaulted at the age of 15 by a school mate, i was married for 10 years and hated sex, i did have 2 kids. Now we are getting a divorce because he could not cope with out it, i hate men. I am worried now that i may bat for the other side if you how what i mean, i hated the males parts made he feel sick, did it just to keep the peace i am glad now it all over but just now feel alone, just miss the hugs.xxx