I went through a trauma 8 years ago & the depersonalization was much worse the years closest to the trauma & have been diminishing every year since....but it still hits at times...when it's the most inconvenient in my life.....when I'm trying to do something that's a little bit stressful to me or when I'm around large groups of people......something I always had problems with but not seriously until I went through the trauma.

The score was probably a little higher than it really should have been not always able to distinguish how often it's hit me.

The first time I experienced depersonalization was when I was feeding the horses at the ranch where I have my horses boarded.....I was grabing hay from the feed pile & people were talking around me & at me & for some reason, I answered but had no idea where the answer came from....& it was like I was watching myself continue to feed the horses & completely disappeared from talking to anyone for fear I wouldn't be able to answer because I just wasn't putting together the reality around me. It continued while my H stopped at the grocery store & I went in following him around the store fearing to stay alone in the car but also not wanting to talk to anyone either. Scared me so bad....asked my pdoc what was going on & that was when he explained that I was experiencing depresonalization....it's hit me several times after that after I left my H 6 years ago & moves 2100 miles away to where I didn't know anyone....it's been scary when it happens & I"m alone...but glad to say that the experiences have been lessening & it helped once I learned what was happening to me.....current psychologist & DBT group leader have been good at working with it also which is probably why it's lessening rather than getting worse.