Am I really cured? I am in my twenties now but when i was younger i had anorexia i was severely depressed and choose by accident to constrict what I ate, I never meant to lose weight i never meant to have a thing about being thin i just did what i could to take control of my life. Anyway now i am clinically overweight i pine for the days when i was thin and healthy. i long for the control i had when i was anorexic and i seriously want to be so thin as to disappear. but i have not taken steps to control anything or i am not so out of control i am over eating i am eating enough (just admittedly) i fear so much going back down the road of needing to constrict my food and drink, falling over every time i stand up, vomiting so much my stomach hurts and taking laxatives i'm crippled with pain. i don't want that but it feels almost inevitable... am i really cured then....