Really fighting the loneliness bug today. But the stupid thing is that I had options to go out tonight--two of them, actually--and I talked myself out of going to both of them. To be fair to myself, I woke up with a horrible headache which has been hanging on all day and hasn't really responded to any medication, so I don't really feel well enough to go out, but still. I am lonely, lamenting the fact that no one ever calls or checks up on me, that I haven't done much of anything this summer but work, that currently the people I have the most contact with are all online and barely even know my real name, and yet I bailed on the two options I had to be social with friends--albeit not very close friends at all, but still friends--tonight.

Anyone else ever do this? Do you ever find yourself so entrenched in your depression/stuck in your ways that it's almost just easier and more comfortable to be alone, no matter how desperately you want to be with other people?