Had been pretty good, now ... not so much. Last night picking up refills, discovered that the particular generic of my main med that I've taken for years is unavailable. The vagaries of switching are scary, especially what with having a virtually non-existant safety net. So, refused it, then went back cowed, realizing my only other option was to go cold turkey (highly inadvisable for this one). Which is ironic, as I've been too afraid to actually take it, creating a de facto cold turkey. And because timing is everything... my "safety net" seems to have gone into shut down mode, which is to say no one would really be keeping an eye on me. Frozen with confusion, apathy and defeat.