I'm pretty isolated too. I have three friends but I'm getting to the point where I rarely see them; they don't really contact me, I have to contact them if I want to see them. If it wasn't for work, I would probably never speak to anyone other than my T and pdoc, which is why I can never ever be on disability for my illness. My life would quickly disintegrate; it would make me exponentially worse very quickly.

I was always a very social person, involved in lots of activities and things. I think of how my life used to be even just five years ago--I had places to go and people to go with. I always had to be doing something. The desire to do things and be active hasn't changed but I don't really have people to do things with. I know I'm probably contradicting what I said in my original post, that I had opportunities just tonight, but going out with acquaintances from Meetup.com isn't the same as having a core group of people you can call up when you want to go to a ballgame, the beach, to a concert, or just out to dinner. It just makes me so sad to think about what my life has become and how lonely it is compared to how it used to be.