I haven been on for a while, but I thought I'd just pop in. I'm trying to stop taking my meds and it's been kinda rough. I've been having major mood swings and really disturbing thoughts that I can't talk to any of my friends about, it's actually scaring me so I came on here. I've been having thoughts about blood and killing things, which are things I've always thought about but now they're starting to really dominate my mind. I saw a cat today and went to go pet it when I realized I wanted to do something... else to it. It ran away from me, which was weird cause animals never run from me then I just sort of froze when I realized what I was thinking when I went up to it. And now I'm scared that I'm going to do something to my bird... I feel absolutely horrible right now. I'm almost back to my original feelings about myself: I'm a weak, evil being who deserves to be in hell.