Quote:
Originally Posted by hamster-bamster
Ok, so the disgust is not unique to your vagina - then you should not spend any time trying to overcome it since it is part of a much bigger general issue, and focusing on the vagina thing would be a waste of time - you need to either tackle the whole issue, or, just not bother with it.
Could you please list what is depressing you when you think of going to see an OB-GYN, and, say whether the fear is specific (fearing the OB-GYN profession) or generalized (fearing all doctors/nurses/etc).
|
Yes I agree. I'm trying to work on the whole issue. It's a very slow process.
I'm scared of doctors to a degree. My mom is a doctor and also my primary abuser so I think you can understand my generalized fear of doctors. It's not an intense fear though. I just find them to be very judgmental, cold, and heartless. I worry that they will judge me. I don't want to show my vagina to them. I don't want them to touch it. I feel dirty just thinking about that. It depresses me because if I went, they'd be the first person to see it post puberty and thinking about that makes me feel completely undesirable. I know that is a stupid reason to be sad about it.