hey

good to see you want to make positive improvements. so first off, congratulate yourself for that.

to work out what you like doing can be quite tricky, but then again, it can be straight forward too.

what excites you? what kind of things do you enjoy doing? maybe if you use the internet alot, maybe you could look into doing a computer course - like an evening course - so you know more about how they work, or do a course in website design. something along those lines perhaps?

what about art, you like any art. like music or painting, drawing etc, if so, try painting a picture, or drawing a sunrise etc....

or maybe charity work. there are plenty of organisations around that are crying out for volunteers. these are good for 2 reasons: 1: it helps out charities which help to improve the world we live in, and 2: it will build your self-confidence and self-esteem up as you will feel valued and appreciated. you will get home on a night time after working for a charity and you will feel you have achieved something, and to know you are helping your local enviroment will make you feel better about yourself. its a win win situation really.

but if your not into charuty work, have you considered getting a part time job at a local shop, say? this will let you meet more people, so it could enhance your social life - allowing you to spend more time out and about at things such as cinemas, restaurants etc. plus getting a part time job will earn you a little money you could use to buy yourself nice things every so often.

to start brainstorming, sit down and go thorugh things you spend a lot of time doing (in your case internet surfing) and try to adapt that into things you enjoy doing. then build on it. and try writing things down that interest you, even if it so simple like walking in the park, because then you could build on it.

the thing that motivates me to do things is boredom. when i get bored i begin feeling depressed, so i have to try to invent things for myself to do to pass the time. even if i have no one to do these things with, i will do things on my own.

good luck and i hope this helps... ket me know if theres anything else you need.

simon