Oh sweet, you poor thing. Seriously, try not to let it worry you too much. I could have written your post and I am a married straight woman....I thought...lol. Although I don't have extreme sexual thoughts about my female therapist, I do love her very much. I have being seeing her for a long time and have done all the things you have, fb etc. I still think about her every single day, what life will be like without her etc. When she is on holiday, I am lost and alone without her, despite the fact I have a loving network around me. Try not to be too hard on yourself, and yes, find a non Christian councellor you talk to. PM me any time......Ive got lots of experience....lol x