That's just the thing though, emotions are always changing. It's the change that I can't handle. It's knowing that the change could happen at anytime when I'm least expecting it and can't handle it. All i know is that it always comes back to this.

I have such an overwhelming urge to...well...you know. And it's getting stronger and I don't know if I can keep fighting it right now.

Second by second... Even that is hard to do right now