I have often had those thoughts and also act on it....What usually went very wrong.
I took almost 3 years Depakote and seroquel. if all went well I thought I could without seroquel, it was only for sleeping and Depakote I dared not to stop.
So I stopped seroquel ..... and after 2 or 3 days without sleep I was hypomanic which in itself was not that bad....but bad enough to make myself believe that I needed no sleep and that i only had more 'energy' ..."It would be fine" the result? I got manic.....full manic and hospitalization was necessary. Got stable ...for a time and thought again i could without medication with the same result. One day I accidentally forgot to take Depakote....and then got the idea to reduce it...and eventually stopped. It works for me but I do need seroquel now I take it even at a higher dose than first.

I have discussed with my pdoc other moodstabilizators but for now I want to try it this way.

I learned the hard way and took many risks and I still take a risk by taking no moodstabilizator. But a high dose of medication was also not good for me, in a way that I was suffering from the side effects. I also 'suffer' from the side effects of seroquel but that's nothing compared to the good effect it gives me.

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