Thanks, Echoes. I don't think it's a new awareness - I remember getting myself worked up like this before - but I'm not like this all the time. These thoughts can come quite suddenly - this time it started off with a simple "they don't want to hear me complaining" - and sometimes they can be hard to shake off. I managed to convince myself that I don't deserve to be around people yesterday, and I can't even remember how I did it! I don't think my thoughts like me.