Hi Growlithing,

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling so much. Having suicidal thoughts can happen for many of people, in fact in life many have thought about it but if it becomes continuous or you feel you are going to act on it please do go and see your Doctor or go to to the ER if you need to, in order to keep safe.

Although your therapist is young and perhaps hasn't had many clients, usually to even get to the stage of seeing clients, there has been a lot of training involved, where handling situations is discussed.
I can understand that you feel like she may be disappointed but it is more likely she will just be concerned for you and sad that things have been hard for you and will want to discuss how you are doing etc. It can be hard for people who see a therapist via a college situation, to then have a long break over the summer months.

Is there anyone you can see in the mean time?