Stupid thoughts, bad thoughts swirling around and filling my head. I can't turn them off. Scared.

I've only been back on lithium for a week. I know I have to be patient. But I can't handle feeling the way I feel today. It's too intense and painful. This is too hard. I need a way to safely ride out these thoughts and feelings until things start to improve.

How do I know if the lithium still needs more time to improve symptoms or if this is as much as the lithium can do for me right now and I need something else with it? Actually, trying to figure that out is too much for me to wrap my brain around right now.

Just know my thoughts aren't good. Can't shut them off. Scared. Don't know how to deal with this. It all feels too big.