Maybe you should slow down in your own head. Don't aim for the stars, aim for love. Both your baby and your partner needs you and you need them. Being away from the people you love, just to get time to do something out of... boredom(?) may hurt more than help. If you really want to make way for yourself, it's your freedom to do so and there is nobody to judge that, but is your life as a home-mom really that bad? Is there something wrong about it?