I'm having a bad day after having so many good days. I feel low and depressed. I'm taking my meds and exercised today. I guess it all comes down to my feelings.

I thought I had things under control and the feeling for my T seemed to go away. In reality I wish my T could be my friend IRL. I see therapy ending sooner than later as I'm getting better. I envision my T not being there for me and it scares me. I feel so pathetic for having that want and having those feelings because I know it will never be. She will be another person that I attach to and in the end can never really be there IRL.

Feeling so alone and depressed like a loser. I will even feel more like a loser for telling T what I'm feeling. Feeling pathetic. Sigh.