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Originally Posted by Perna
But, wouldn't you like to learn to be compassionate, understanding, and accepting of yourself? You are allowed to have that goal/desire, to imagine how good that would feel and how free you would feel to learn that. It wouldn't take 26 years either, because you would start now; I didn't start until I was 46  |
I think I want that. To be honest, I'm kind of scared of being accepting of myself. I don't know what that would feel like. Would I start doing sloppy work if I was less critical of myself? Maybe I'd be more of a careless person. I also don't even know how to become more self accepting. I also just want my mom to leave and never come back tomorrow. I feel like I will never be free until she is gone.
I can't actually kill myself. There are too many people I'd upset that I care about. But the fact that I won't kill myself doesn't change how much I sometimes want to. I really need to be seeing someone right now. Making statements like these are really not okay.