No-one quite understands what losing your man is like,
Its worse than falling off and breaking your long saved for new bike.
It leaves you feeling lonely when you have friends around,
It leaves you listening on a night for every little sound.
Just longing for that special one who
always cared and said he loved you.
People say, you'll find another,
But no-one can replace your one true lover.
That's the one with whom you are meant to be,
And no other one can live up to he.
You try and carry on the best you can,
But all the time you're longing for your man.
It leaves a hole within your heart
Which nothing can fill whilst your apart.
There is a tunnel but there is no light,
Just a hurt deep inside both day and night.
That hurt will pass people say without knowing,
When in fact it just keeps on growing and growing.
Nothing seems quite as it should,
That hole is there it's there for good.
The world goes on though your world's ended,
That hole in your heart will never be mended.
No matter what you try to do
That hurt is there a haunting you.
Five or ten years down the line,
Just when you think you're doing fine,
Something will remind you of your love that's gone,
It may be a photo, a saying, a song.
Then suddenly all the hurt comes back ,
And for a while your world turns black.
You pick yourself up and carry on again,
But deep inside that hurt remains.
Locked away until you die,
And are reunited with your lover in the sky.
But till the time you're laid to rest,
You just have to carry on and do your best.
a poem i wrote about four years ago, long after losing my partner