herethennow, I think you should see your therapist as soon as possible. I recall that you went without hurting yourself for a period of time, but now it's more regular, so that's a bad sign.

I've noticed some of you haven't been able to cry. I remember times when I wanted to but couldn't. Ironically, it was the truly insignificant things that I was able to cry about. As an example: my mom made me salad and I left it for so long that it got soggy and I don't eat soggy salad. So I got so upset at the idea that she went through the trouble of making it and now it was going to be thrown away. Apparently all the major problems in life, like say me feeling depressed all the time and not doing that well in school, among other things, weren't things I could cry about. I still don't really understand it; maybe I was indirectly crying about things I should be crying about? In any case, maybe try and cry about something totally insignificant, see if that works. But make sure you see how insignificant it really is (a bowl of salad? Seriously?). Could be it's just me and my catastrophizing nature.