You describe it so well. The love hate relationship we have with it.

It can get better though. Don't lose hope. It is possible to quit; hard, painful, almost unbearable, but possible. Don't lose sight of that.

I hope your feeling a bit better, and remember that you can always come here and talk to us. We won't abandon or leave you. We won't run away. And we won't be digusted with you.

Hang in there