The depressive state was what caused you to try alcohol for relieving that feeling
tone. It added to the symptoms of your depression. Alcohol is known to make depression
worse, PBC Mom.

Your doctor might wish to change your medications if you'll tell him about using alcohol
to self-medicate. You may need a change of medication to something like Lamictal,
which is noted for stabilizing mood swings--especially the depressive state in bipolar,
type II illness.

Really hope you've got it all under control soon.

Take care.