I have to be quite honest with you here and I think you need to get in and get a psychiatric assessmet ASAP. If you have been grappling with the depression for a year now, it doesn't just magically get better on its own absent psychotherapy, medications or some natural element that you mentioned. You are already way down and need the help of a professional)s). Whether you have health insurance or not, every city in the United States has health programs for individuals on a sliding scale which means you pay what you can afford. Look in your phone book in the front under your city and look under mental health and there will be a number. Start there. You cannot do this on your own. Call a friend. Get your boyfriend involved, immediately. Good Luck!