Evening couch.

Well...the zoo trip went well. No comments about my appearance or life choices were made. Thank goodness. Just enjoyable time looking at animals.

Won't be able to get back to the zoo for a couple of days, but that's okay...it's not like I have to go everyday. :-P I have to work at the senior place in the morning tomorrow, then have C in the afternoon. Tuesday, I have C in the morning, then to T an hour later, then to pdoc an hour after I am done with T.

Hopefully pdoc will keep everything the same since I seem to be pretty stablized. Though I thought I was stabilzed 2 months ago at my last appointment, when he said we needed to up one of the meds we started 6 weeks prior to that to a "therapeutic dose" because even though I felt better at the "lower dose" it wouldn't work in the future. Hopefully I am at the therapeutic dose now and he won't try to increase it again. I know in the end I can always refuse to increase the dose, but I don't like being "difficult" and his reasoning last time made sense. I'm trying not to think about it too much. Hopefully T can help me worry about it less since I see her before pdoc.

I almost fell asleep before taking my antipsychotic again. I woke up about 9:30pm and realized I hadn't taken it. Thank goodness I woke up, so I can prevent a night full of odd dreams. During the day (morning dose) it keeps me from hallucinating or having paranoia. If I don't take it at night...I hallucinate in my dreams or have other strange things happen in them. I would rather not dream that I am hallucinating.

Well...I need to go off to bed. I have to work all day tomorrow.

I hope everyone has a good night.