Thank you for the hugs, all. I've been crying all day.

I think part of my problem is that I make things matter a lot more than they should. This is a bad tendency of mine. I need to put hurtful experiences in the past and move on.

After doing my friend's grocery shopping for him, yesterday, I came home to my own empty refrigerator and pantry. I should go to the store and get some groceries for myself. I've been awfully depressed. I've just wanted to sleep. I've eaten little today, and I don't seem to care. I wish it were I who was coming to the end of life.