No safety net. Having given heart and soul without hesitation over and over and over again doesn't matter one bit.

Honest to God, I am so stupid. You'd think I'd know how it works after all these decades. Mattering is for others. Needing is for others. Asking is for others. Receiving is for others. Consideration is for others. Being given a damn about is for others.

This is how it is, and always has been in my real life.

But now I am exhausted. Can't do this anymore.