Thanks everyone! It was actually pretty reassuring to read about others feeling sorta resistant to it. So far I've pretty much just been in a whirlwind with it, because things that I have relatively "dealt with" he brings up. Like... I can go on with my life pretty normally, but I don't particularly like thinking about or talking about a lot of my past. He hit on a pretty big trigger the first time I was there - I don't blame him for it cause how was he to know? but it doesn't help with the fact that I feel sorta angry going in as I don't want to be going. I know that I made the CHOICE to go, but I chose to go mostly because the GP was pressuring me to go and that I had to go through Mental Health to even get an appointment with the pdoc, and my T was in my intake consultation with the pdoc so I figure he's already heard it so why not keep going.. and the the pdoc basically also assumed that I would have to continue with the T. So... off I went. I'm giving it my all but I just sorta feel like a failure cause the things my T has asked me to try just tend to p*** me off.

To the extent that for my second meeting I went in with an organized binder with all the stuff he'd gave me and asked me to do. Including a page where I wrote down all my goals, which he hadn't really seemed to accept as a goal the first time. I sorta had some rather passive-aggressive subheadings... I didn't mean to be a b**** about it, but they were the only headings I could really think of. And like... I'm not really an angry person. But I just feel frustrated and angry about going to these appointments!