Thank you, Gayle.
I know how it is to look at death in the face. How it is to see people you love fading from you. The only solace I have from my brothers passing is that I helped give him a good life. I was a good sibling. I took care of him. I can see the smiles in photos. He had a happy life, cut short, but it was happy.

But a friend. It scares me. I am terrified that those I love will all die and I will lose my mind properly. I never fear being alone. I dont fear dying alone. I fear watching those I love die, alone or not. It guts me.