I've never had a mixed episode, and I can't imagine dealing with the loss of a child. I'm so sorry for your loss.

I did have a very severe depression about twenty four years ago. It lasted almost a year and every second was torture and all I wanted was to die. I had small kids and I was unable to care for them which left me feeling horribly guilty.

Looking back on that period, I am wondering if it would have been called a mixed episode. I was super agitated but like you said I felt paralyzed. It was awful!

My husband these days is more supportive than he used to be. I take care of the basics as far as laundry, dishes, and the dogs, and he doesn't bug me much about the rest.