First T I told after a few months. Her response, in which she told me that it didn't matter and was not worth discussing, filled me with such shame and regret for telling.
Current T, I was afraid to mention it because I thought he would tell me how unimportant it was and I would once again feel shamed. After about a year I hinted at it and he was so wonderful and gentle that I was able to discuss it more with him. So many of my issues go back to that betrayal/abuse that I really needed to work on it in T in order to understand and make changes to help me get healthier emotionally.
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