I think I should be in a hospital. The psych hospital in my town is awful, so I won't go there. I think about going to the state hospital, which is kind of far from me. I don't think they would take me. I'm not suicidal. All I really need is partial hospitalization. That's not available anymore in my town. I tell myself all the things I should be doing, but I don't do them. I just break down sobbing over and over all day long. Without some real major help, I don't think I am going to improve. Sorry to dump my problems like this. PC is about all I have. I don't have friends. There is just my S/O, but he is worn out with my sadness. So I'm home trying to give him a break.