I find that I almost have to work when I'm depressed. The one time I took time off I did absolutely nothing. I had no desire to do anything, no motivation to do anything and I hardly moved all day. I didn't think that would be helpful for me, so I returned to work. Also, if things are really bad work keeps me safe. At those times if I took time off I would need to be in hospital. It is impossibly difficult, and I don't know how I've managed, so I truly understand that many people need to be off work.

As to what I did. I shut my door and had tears streaming down my face whilst working on reports. My productivity decreased as I often spent time just staring at my computer. I'm a psychologist and found when I was with patients it was easier in some ways as I had to concentrate on them, particularly as I work with children and they need your energy and enthusiasm. I would take breaks during the day to go and sit outside and cry.

I gave everything I had at work, so at home I did nothing and my husband had to deal with all the gritty details of home life.

Please hang on. I hope things get better for you soon.