I think you have something there when you talk about moving to a new state at age 4 and your parents vicioius fighting. It might not sound like much to an adult, but to a little 4 year old girl it may have felt like everything was wildly out of control. OCD can be an attempt to feel control. It can get out of control itself and then cause problems way beyond the initial issues.

I hope you will consider speaking to a therapist soon. You have much to look forward to in your life, many things you would like to accomplish, and getting help with this will help free yourself to do what you want instead of being limited because your compulsions and obsessions.

ECHOES