Sky, she has all of the meds, depression, anxiety, you name it. I will go through withdrawals but I am prepared. I am doing some herbal things that I believe will help. And you are right it was and is a PTSD reaction. I was depending on her to help me and she failed me. HISTORY, I was depending on the ER to help me and they not only failed me, they victimized me. I feel that last visit was traumatic. who are these people responsible to? My shoulder was big time pain more then this body has ever known and they treated me like poop. I like my doc as a person but your right, it's a fear thing. In my mind if she can't help me with the pain I don't trust her with the rest of it either. It has been a good cocktail though, the depression/anxiety meds but maybe they do something to highten pain senses.