It's a difficult feeling to explain - I want them to be proud of me, and we are a very close family. Maybe they really are proud of me, it's hard to tell at times, because as a rule, we are all perfectionists, so if we feel something isn't right, we're more likely to comment on that than if we think someone is doing the right thing. No, I haven't really expressed how I feel to them, partly because I'm afraid to hear the answer.