A combo of Nessa and Polesapart's methods / reasons.

I have to work, no choice, not financially, emotionally or mentally.
Being unemployed nearly literally killed me, work gives me a sense of pride and purpose, besides, what would my daughter eat?

she's enough reason for me to keep trying lol

I guess I just trudge through as best I can, showing up is the hardest part on most occasions, I get too wrapped up in my job for bp to interfere when I'm depressed. Then I usually find myself dreading being home... with me myself and my mind.

Hypo, I have to work 10x harder because my brain is everywhere and here, so lots of room for error.

Earphones, breathing exercises and sunlight help me cope at work.

Also ramping up the self-care during depressions helps alot, we had a thread on healthy hedonism a whiiiile back, it had very good tips for being kind to yourself.

I get why its bad, and how some people can't function at work, and feel for you, but I'm worse off at home

I'm lucky to work for a flexi type company for the first time, so I'm hoping that if the faecal matter should unfortunately hit the ceiling oscillator in a big way in future, then I will be able to work from home, should I not be acceptable to the general public

You might want to look into a vocation that's more suited to your personal needs.