I swear to god, Lola, you have the worst ****ing luck with therapists. Please do shop around and consider a PhD at least.

I have T at a weird time for me today -- 2. I am currently obsessing with wondering why his Tuesday morning appointments are on the half hour, and the Tuesday afternoon appointments are on the hour. He mentioned once that Tuesdays are the only time he has appointments on the half hour.

Oh, did I mention that a few weeks ago it was super dark out -- stormy -- and so his office was dark because he doesn't use the overhead lights. I was like, Dude, this is too dark given how I feel about you. He laughed kind of nervously and said the overheads were 'crazy bright' and flipped them on to show me. I asked him why he didn't just remove every other light tube. He kind of went off about how brilliant I am and how he never thought of that. I was like, damn, I'm in lust with a stupid man.