ohhhhhhhh to you!! i can so relate and it is SO SO hard and painful. i know it doesnt help to hear it, but it is normal and it happens. I agree with EVERYTHING asiablue said above. Try to accept that 1.) you feel that way and 2.) try to accept what she CAN give. And it is very very important that you T can handle these feelings and work with them and realize how important it is to work through them. SO MUCH of my therapy has been focused around these feelings. Hang in there....its gets better and easier i PROMISE!