Just venting.
I hate that I have no one, IRL, that gets what Im going through. No one but you guys know. My thoughts are broken and I cant even clean my house. Im just a mess. I feel like Im going to crack. I want to be admitted, but my sister and my husband need me. Im all they have. My sister is 2 months pregnant and this is the farthest shes gone without miscarriage and she has Crohns and her bf is a POS. Theyve been together 13 years and hes acting like this pregnancy is a burden. Imho, I think hes just not wamting to get attached to the baby due to the past miscarriages, but laying out drunk all the time isnt helping my sister. Then my husband may have to have his intestines either removed or dilated due to scarring in there so I gotta be there for him. I need help. But my sister and I only have eachother and my husbands family dont care what goes on with him. They think hes on drugs, not sick. Now, my youngest has the mumps. I feel like Im the only person that can do things right. And this is causing my anxiety and depression to he way worse.
Im losing my mind.