I actually just read this OP before heading out to Ts and now I'm back from my session and I brought up whether she thought therapy was sadistic in a way because I struggle with going to Therapy since it takes me the whole session to get going and then when I get going I usually end up crying and then "oh, our time is up" and I leave all vulnerable and shaking. So yes I tend to think it's a bit sadistic since I keep going back and repeating the same pattern over and over again. Anyway, my T said, obviously, that therapy was not sadistic and then worked on some calming skills to get me out the door ok. So I guess that helped a bit.

On a related note though, I often think my T is not listening to me or finds what I'm saying boring; does this occur to anyone else? My T hasn't outright said she's bored but she just looks kind of bored...