You're not being obnoxious. You're scared and pessimistic. Sometimes I tell my little girl, that it's okay to feel scared, but that we need to take our feelings and act through them. It's one thing to feel afraid, another to give into it. Sometimes.... I have to tell myself that too.

Up to you the best way to deal with this, but I am hearing you need support, more than you're getting, and I hope you'll find a path that works for you to get it.