I saw the SA therapist today. She totally dashed my hopes of ever finding the right treatment... She said that trauma programs virtually don't exist, and my hopes for starting something at an inpatient level are outrageous. She said I will be forced into whatever treatment they deem best, and I will have no say over it. She also said a whole bunch of stuff that reminded me why she made me uncomfortable the first time I ever saw her. I'm glad I have my regular T, because I certainly won't be back to see her. She was all about involuntary commitment at the slightest hint of self-harm, and she did not seem too keen on talking about things.
Does anyone know of a trauma treatment program that does not push meds? Is there one out there where they work with you to get the best treatment possible? I know I have some pretty set ideas on meds, but that is out of trial and error, not simply a jump to a decision. I told her that I was open to other treatments, but meds have over-all proven detrimental to me. She refused to believe that meds would not work. I dunno. I'm questioning my plans (that my primary T and I came up with) all because of this woman. I think it's because the more people I encounter in mental health in this state, the more I realize the majority of them are jaded and cynical... My T seems to be an exception. Am I deluding myself that I will be able to find help?