It's kept around 36'c or about 96'f I think for my faherheit friends, for the last week or so. I have no airconditioning at my house. It feels like my brain and body are melting. I am getting extremely frustrated with the whole thing. My house work is not getting done, my house is a totall disaster. And when my house is chaos my mind starts to become chaos. Just very disorganised, my memory starts to slide etc. And I do that whole guilt thing about my lack of getting my stuff done.

Ever see that episode of Married With Children where they set up camp in the grocery store for the airconditioning. I am about there.

I have managed to keep on top of my fitness goals do two workouts in the evening, and a run. But in order to run I have had to go at about 10pm, cause there is no way I am going at 6am. It's too hot to go any other time. Working out when it's 30 degrees inside is bad enough.. I mean you get a really good sweat but yuck.

My son and I ran 5.12 k the night before last clocked at 35 min. So I was feeling pretty good about that. It's not that fast but for my first two weeks of running thats not that bad i think.


I've been neglecting my yoga since all these injuries. Someone just tell me to get my yoga on because I need a kick in the butt. I start to get nervous around summer because that is where I have hit my worst and longest manic/psychotic periods. Too much sun, too much light, too much disorganised routine.

I know that yoga keeps my head and feet on the ground but I think I got a fear thing going on from the not so mild injuries I had. Soo I need someone to tell me to just do it. Some tough love I dunno. Don't know why I am having such a hard time with this. I love my practice so whats the problem.

And I just don't wanna go to work. I know I am being taken advantage of there pretty boldly and it does not make me want to show up and work hard anymore. I will show up and work hard because I have to but man, I really don't enjoy it right now. Maybe if they had airconditioning haha.

If there is typos I appologise. Phone is just to small for my eyes.