Well, I went to group and saw T for the first time in about a month. Wasn't very eventful for me. He said something that caused me to want to lash out - and I voiced that. It was the only thing I said for the entire session. Just felt....I dunno....silent.....*sigh*

I feel totally silent at the moment as well....and that's not a good sign for me. It's a sign of the beginning of the sinking. I should DO something - reach out to a friend, or whatnot. Maybe I'll go mow the lawn. In a lot of pain, but it needs to be mowed. That's something, right?