Today I got told by someone I care about that I am, "boring, quiet and dead". I just want to go over to a corner sit down and shut off...mentally, emotionally, physically....why can't it just stop. There is only one thing, just ONE thing I have ever wanted out of life. No matter what I do it makes no difference. I work a job that is stressful but fulfilling, nothing changes. I workout at 0500 six days a week, nothing changes. I change my eating habits, nothing changes. I know I am not funny, an introvert, and shy but come on. What do I have to do? Why should I change who I am just to be with someone? Because really that's all I have ever wanted, a family....that's it. Why can't I find someone that actually cares about me for me?