I feel so trapped. I restrict and restrict until I inevitably binge and them back to restricting to make up for it. I'm so scared that I'll never be able to eat normally. I can't even have a normal meal where I leave feeling satisfied, it's either restrict so that my ED is satisfied or binge until I'm uncomfortably full and feel sick and hate myself.

is anyone on the other side ? is there ever gonna be normalcy for me ? I'm so freaking scared that I'm ruined, a failure, I'll never have a normal relationship with food ever. like I'm just this giant overweight monster waiting to happen